Dear No. 25,

Oh my, I was so happy to see your DM! You’ve always brought such a smile to my face. That sounds really creepy, especially since we’ve never really hung out outside of class, but I’ve always thought you were awesome. You’re a very kind person. I can’t attest to all areas of your life, because I don’t want to come across as assuming or superficial. Albeit, the two photography classes I’ve had with you, you’ve been nothing but sweet.

I’m very insecure about my photography, because it’s not my major. I don’t understand composing or printing. I really struggled through my photo classes, but you made them enjoyable. You always had something positive to say, especially when no one else wanted to give feedback. You would break the silence, and I thank you for that.  I’m not typically one to stay quiet during critique, but something about photography I never felt I had the authority or confidence to give constructive feedback, as I wasn't sure what I was doing either. So thank you for always keeping the conversation going.

You speak your mind and I like that about you. You don’t seem to disguise your feelings like everyone else. You say if you’re happy, sad, or anything in between, but you also don’t wear your troubles as your personality. Rather you make it apparent how your past has led you to where you are now, which is very forward thinking, hopeful to say the least.

At first you intimidated me with your style. It’s very opposite mine, but honestly only because I’m too meek to pull it off. You seemed almost too cool for me, which sounds so rancid. I try not to think in terms of tiers, gradients of “coolness”, but that’s the only way I can think to describe how I feel. Although once you spoke, I realized you were really approachable and gentle. It’d brighten my day when you’d talk to me, even if it was only to say hi. You seem very self-aware and aware of those around you. You’re very perceptive.

I’ve realized in writing these, that it’s really difficult to bottle up all the love I feel for everyone in a letter. I thought the more I write the closer I’ll get, but I hope you know I appreciate and love you. I’m always here if you want to talk, or rant, or just awkwardly sit and exist. Sending lots of love, support, and appreciation your way for the coming months!


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